dasixthmonth

So yeah, after three weeks of examination, we were given our mid year holiday which consist two weeks. So far, two days have already passed and I'm at my hometown right now. Sigh, because of this, I missed the chance to support my friend in the TDS's Dance competition. I wanted to support so much but what the hell. I was even a free ticket but I had to decline. I was pissed off  honestly but oh well, there's nothing I can do. All contestants from Dua Space made it into the finals and I'm really happy for them. I went to consult a specialist in bones during my stay in Malacca and I have been told I shouldn't expect to dance for three months. That's it, I'm done. I'm not gonna take my Advanced 1 examinations and I'm going to be slower than the girls in my class. I already lost the strength in my body and GUGH, my muscles are gone. This is the worst nightmare. My brother bought a new laptop and I'm blogging now using his old one. I find it rea

Now, I'm not a good person. I have an evil seed inside me and every second I'm growing it's gonna bloom along with me. It's just that my good side is gonna stop it. I believe I kinda have something like a dual personality. Duh, I'm a Gemini. I'm not gonna hold back anymore. I'm done with fake smiles and saying "I'm okay.", "It's nothing.". This harsh world has exposed me enough to its cruel reality. I'm tired of this bullshit. I was doing my Biology paper when all these thoughts went into my head. Biology is the 'study of life', so it's natural for me to think of life. Since the beginning of this year, I'm greatly distracted. I'm facing my major exams this year and I still have this 'I don't give a damn' attitude towards everything. SW once admired this attitude of mine and I'm like, this is really admirable? I laughed, I didn't really think it was anything good. This rant of mine,

I don't know is it me, or is it you all. I don't see the point anymore. I rather regret not going to Tokyo Disneyland than to regret for not studying Physics. Torturing yourself by sleeping so late at night and then to wake up even before the sun rises, just to flip through the books and then to close your eyes again. I don't know I should admire your effort or think that's sad. Sure, I know exam is all important and stuff, but do you have to go to that extend? I know I have this personality, which I don't give a damn on how well I do, unless it's something I really like, like dancing. That's why when I remained neutral whenever I see my failed Add Maths paper. I know I should be like, 'AWW YEAH I GOTTA STUDY', but I don't see the point anymore. Sigh, why should I do stuffs I don't like to do anyway? --- How many times had I been here? I looked at the pictures hanging on the wall. They had been there since I was five, and they p